{Underneath the Stars.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

existentialism.

6:45 AM

lady luck dont you brush your teeth?

I'm listening what they say

Feeling less and less ok

But it's the same old story

How do i fix my head?

How do i fix my head

Living in a world

Where changing what you've got

Makes you better

its so typical, for my luck to abandon me at the time i need it most. but maybe blaming luck is just my way of comforting myself.

noone understands. sounds angsty, but its true, its not the hormones speaking trust me.

people can just get so annoyng, im no exception.

today was fine. school was okay sat with shannon today. then RE was quite okay too met Dr micheal koh today, nice guy. after a long time played soccer downstairs :]

yesterday was fun:] like out of 4 subjects (including PE) 3 teachers were absent. = slack! but too bad got china cct gotta study. think so far my ccts arnt tht bad.

monday was shit besides the fact that maths cct was fine. roll-off was BS. fuck it man dunno wads wrong, and its nt like i can go training anytime, fuck man i wanna quit bowling, fucked up eexpensive and so fucking boring.

no choice, i dont really care if i even make it to the team. i really give up. other then that i gues lifes nt bad. but cca is pretty big part of my life.

HOPE things get better. i pray to GOD, im trying out lent :] GOD guide me :]

Saturday, February 16, 2008

and so it was the end of the beginning.

9:09 AM

oh yea i rmb i was suppose to elaborate bout last tues.

ok so here goes. we were playing some retarded betting game. so they bet me that i'll go ask any Rj hockey girl for their number =/ in front of the whole team... ggxxf2l

so luckily..i knew cheryl alr. so i bluff them i didnt know anyone at all. then they say if i did iti'll get 10 bucks if i didnt ill get raped in front of the whole rj hockey team :/

what to do?....i went to ask, im so dumb la. its always the case after i do sometting dumb i come up with something smart to get away with it.. damn it too late.

me: eh hi!
cheryl: oh yeeh hi you!!

me: ill gif you $5 for your number
cheryl: you siao ah!

she walks away

i showed them another cheryls number to bluff then den suddenly someone said "eh he know that girl la"

so i got raped and i got humiliated in front of cheryl after just getting to be friends with her. :/
damn, what if shes my ogl next year? ggxxf2lomgwtfbbq.

blog bout the rest of the wwek nxt time. sorry im tired gotta go CAT class in the morn.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

& i am known as: ??++

6:20 AM

chinese new year is over! :[
like half of it was spent gambling, wahahaha. i lost like 50 bucks in texas holdem omgwtfbbq :p

on saturday stay over at terry's house and we like gamble watch movie eat gamble, play some rubish game talk sleep wake up gamble. har like we addicted but it was fun!
then on sunday went to andrew's house supposedly again for gambling, but most of them brought not enough and there wereent enough chips so we played capitol 1 buck... wow but i still owned in poker and balckjack ahaha. :]

lastl wed was CNY celebrations in school, i like being in the top balcony of the hall we. we llike spammed psp and like ate oranges that some ppl stole :0 damn rubbish din even know what happened during the concert except the fashion show :P ahaha

after that wentto sicc with bryan, avi, marcus, jason, shan, eugene and andrew. and then like the rgs ppl came and marcus was like (someone's) mouth look like its constantly bleeding. ahah avi got punched for telling her that :0 violence should nt be encourage ;]

bowl ate played pool and talked then went home at 4 for early reniunion dinner. whoa eugene is such a head turner ;) you know wad i mean ahaha. jealous i admit.

today was quite fun too. had tennis for pe which was fun! after school dunno got nth to do went for physics remedial :0 amazing..
then gymed with eugene. i shud do it more often im like some twig. blah...annoying metabolic rate.

watched the rugby match afterwards and RI thrashed. RAffles spirit!!!!! wooooo :\
then like after the match there was alot ice from the drinks box and like we did alot of retarded stuff like raping ppl and shoving the "king" into his pants. lucky i kena the small one only. i shrank. :0

long long long long post and this aint helping it become shorter.
i will be back to tell the sad tale of me lat tuesday. ahaha :)

Sunday, February 03, 2008

the irony of heroin.

4:03 AM

yesterday, was suppose to go shannon's house for hist but in the end we went amos' house for english. in like 4 weeks i think about 4 or 5 projects have piled up. i better not procrastinate, its a fuggin bad habit.

its alot of work work work. & life is gettin dull. what more tests are coming head on w/o any hesitation or remorse if it knocks me down and out. hope i dont die this young.

been watching vids of futsal, and FALCAO is awesome. feel so inspired. i wished i was in soccer. TOO bad.

church was okay today. did my confirmation interview thinnga- mer -gic and it was okay too. but i was distraced for some part because i was er...undisclosed. cant say. but not like you care.

i think my perfect angel would be one to do my homework and my tests and get high marks. is there such an angel in heaven?.

I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here

Thursday, January 31, 2008

.where you were born again.

6:32 AM

Don't think i want many people to know bout this blog. but i guess many people don't even bother.

& these fights they climb through my veins like its mecury rising
and these nights I seem to remember a home that was better
and now he's turning off
and now she's shutting down
and its not what it seems nothings the same when you give it away
no its not what it seems
its just what you think it is
and now he's turning off his family's breaking down
and it's not what it seems nothings the same when you give it away
no it's not what it seems

LADY LUCK, what the fuck?

Dunno what im catching, some sorta bug it cant be contagious seems like im the only one suffering.
But saying thats indifferent for there are always other worse off. i know its cliche, but whats worse than one's dreams shattered, the bar set too low, rigid, even i cant move it.

tomorrow should be better, but how nice would it be to have someone on the same level, or maybe having to face the same bar, maybe to atempt to limbo under it only to hit chins and break our necks. HAH! how morbid. i think the backstreet boys were right " sadness is beautiful, but loneliness is tradgical".

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

im in com lab!!!

7:54 PM

yesterday, school was as usual and was generally boring AGAIN. i think i slept abit.
aiyo, for the past 2 days ive been poning maths ^^ ahaha, but not on purpose la, i had health check and dental checkup. we are in the com lab now and alimi is beside me now......the mina magnet.
So after school me jason and shannon went to eat at macs, but b4 that we were trying to walk blindfolded on the wayto j8.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Whoooooooooo OPEN house!!

10:24 AM

Open house!! today is open house and i had the 7.30 to 12.30 pm shift =(. people from other CCAs get 2 hour shifts wth. so it was all fine and dandy,at our booth, people came and went, and alot of them played with the mini bowling set thats greg brought, had to admit that it was quite FUN! but its childish. BUT fun! After everything Ryan as usual always wants to leave early and leaves the EARLIEST, i spent like 1/4 of the time there wondering around playin the games the booths offered, mainly the water polo booth. i went to the interact club booth and talked to yinrong and angus awhile dne i went to the rugby booth to play psp with faris. i want a psp la=(
like at 1+ me andrew shannon marcus jason bryan and dixon left to eat. at first we wanted to eat at orchard but andrew and marcus ahd to go early so we ate at j8 instead -.- ate KFC. Andrew and marcus den left, so it the 5 of us. so we trained to somerset and went cuppage to play pool.
Aiyo we were like the smallest people there la, like some umpaa lumpaas(okay it was mainly me the umpa lumpa cuz i was the smallest size but yar, we were the smallest and youngest) and i tot we were underaged to go in but jason had hes IC alr so we went in to play, in the end we din even need IC to play la wth.....

play about 5 rounds and we booked 2 tables. i won2? and lost 3? i think. its not that i was lousy, jason and bryan were pro. den we wanted to eat at heeren but in the end shannon and bryan couldnt so we decided to zao. We went heeren in the end, but not to eat, but to buy some of bryans rugby stuff....he bought likesome tight suit thingy which like highlighted he titts=l aha.

bryan left us to go sicc and shannon took different train line from me and jason. i was heding for tampnes and jason was heading for eunos. so on the train i chated with him for quite some time talked about stuff...yea quite specific.

anyway he got off and i said byee and blahblah den i got off and den i went to the place where i wait for the shuttle bus to my condo..yea im not rich. But i waited for like 40 mins for the freaking gay blue bus to arrive and nth. i was so tempted to cab back, but my wallet told me not to-.-. one woman who was as fraustrted as i was offered to share with me as it was aboutto rain. but in the end some old people told us not to as the bus would arrive any minute, true ebought the bus came after they said that..like almost immediate. WOW they were psychic. and they saved my $$$. hehe.

so the moral of the story is listen to old people who are ot insane.